Grain of sand living

"The world is massive and I feel like I am living in the circumference of a grain of sand. Something needs to give".

This is what I expressed and shared on my facebook page yesterday and thought it would be good to extend as a blog here because I know I am not alone.

I woke up to a beautiful sunny Sunday morning. As I sat in bed I felt grateful for my life and achievements but acknowledged that I am not content with the present, right here, right now. The universe is massive, the world is big and as I contemplated my day to day activities my life has become circular, rigid, predictable and unadventurous. Minuscule existence, in comparison to the many possibilities that are waiting to be seen and grabbed.

My mind travelled back to my time in Jamaica, Barbados, LA and then went on to dream about countries I have yet to visit, Bahamas, Maldives and Egypt to name a few. My brain was now on a roll as images of my future house, work environment; trips away and how I want my life to be, flooded my head and made me smile.

 

I don’t have the answer right now to what would make me fully content but acknowledging this is how I feel right now is enough…. though if I think that little bit harder having the ability to just get up and go would be great. Feeling sand under my feet and dancing like no one is watching by a campfire with friends, with the worlds best Rose in the cooler could work marvellous. As I click my heels under my desk nothing is happening. Why is it only Dorothy that is allowed to have this instant gratification?

I guess the essence of what I want is to feel completely and utterly free. Work is for money which is used to pay bills and any left over enables you to have a social life or experience. This is the circumference of a grain of sand kind of living and I don’t want it anymore, because I know there is more to life. I want to be in the place where my money, all of it can be used to make things happen. This is Richard Branson’s way of thinking and living and well he looks pretty free to me.

The life I want is out there, just as it is and continues to be for the man who knows no boundaries. However none of us need to look for The Emerald City like Dorothy in order to find our "home" which in this sense is our passion, love and self-purpose, because The Emerald City is inside us. Creating it is the next stage but we need to create it from the inside out (like a Care Bear) Everything once was a thought, a dream and there is no one better than yourself to create your own world that you want to live in, be in.

One grain of sand, as I explained above can be rigid but the bigger picture is that it can help to make a beautiful beach, sand dune and more. Similar yet different and unique in our own special ways we all have a purpose and surely a right to live a life we love. Right?

What does your dream life look like? Feel like? Visualise it and make it happen. 


© Lisa Bent 2012